Breaking the Silence

 

By Maribel Shlichtman

When I was nineteen years old, I had an abortion.  When my mother found out that I was pregnant she kicked me out of the house, and two weeks later told me to return home and have an abortion or to never return and keep the baby.  My mom handed me the money for the abortion and my sister drove me to the clinic while my mom and step-dad stayed home as their first grandchild was being terminated.

The clinic was filled with so many women, young and old, arriving and leaving in a catatonic state. I was told that my baby was a blob of tissue and that the abortion was a safe procedure.

When I came back home, my parents and I lived as if nothing had ever happened and we never talked about the abortion again. After the abortion, the feeling of relief of no longer being pregnant was quickly replaced with feelings of guilt and remorse.  I cried for two months and because the emotional pain was so overwhelming, I tried to kill myself by starving myself to death.  In three weeks I went from 125 lbs to 111 lbs.  Realizing what I was doing, my mother pleaded with me to start eating again, and I did, regaining the weight.

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Dear God,

One thing I never got to say to my baby girl Samantha Grace, was "I love you."  I never got to express how special and dear she was to me.  I wish I could have touched her face and let her grasp my hand, to stare into her eyes and smile.  I wish I could have whispered in her ear, "Jesus loves you and I love you too."  I wish I could have ...

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My Little Boy

In August 2006 when I was 5 months pregnant for the first time, we were told that my baby had a 1 in 10 chance of having Down Syndrome.  That was very difficult news to digest in itself but then a few days later when we went in for our level 2 ultrasound we were delivered even more devastating news that there was no heartbeat and our precious baby boy had died.  A few weeks later we did find out that our little boy did indeed have Down Syndrome and he was just not well enough to be born into this world. 

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The Barren Womb

I grew up with loving parents who provided for me and protected me; however, the family unit began to fall apart when I was in my early teens, and when I was sixteen, my parents divorced. The divorce occurred around the same time I broke up with my first boyfriend and I was very lonely. My family, as I had known it, was gone. My parents had their own problems and I no longer got the attention, love, or affirmation I so needed, and I didn’t know how to ask for it. I began to look for love in the wrong places and became pregnant when I was 19 years old. I was very scared and confused and felt all alone.

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Many years of pain

My name is Daniel and my wife's name is Fallon. I am 29 and my wife is 27. A little background in our story is similar to many on the website. My wife was 19 and I was 21 when we had our first abortion. We were young and living in the world, we did not have the saving knowledge of Jesus Christ. Our second abortion was when she was 22 and I was 24, still in the world not knowing the severity of our choices.

We had many years of pain, through it all Jesus had a plan for it all. Jesus is awesome! He can take our sin and flip it around to good. Praise you Jesus. My wife and I were born again in 2007 and immediately.got married.

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I was in an adulterous affair with another man. It was not that I was not content within my marriage, but I allowed Satan to put doubts and curiosity in my head. I was a virgin when I got married at of 18 years of age. I thought that I might have been missing something, that maybe the grass might be greener on the other side. Besides, I was aware of other people having “affairs” around me. It was all over TV. All of these things I allowed to cloud my judgement and I also allowed Satan to provide that opportunity.

Well, the grass was not greener on the other side. In fact, it’s filled with thorns and thistles. I was a fool who all of a sudden found herself pregnant with another man’s child. It was at this point in my life,...

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